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About Me Member 3D Modeler shadow-nova22/Male/Finland Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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Mon Oct 26, 2009, 5:19 AM
strange. i keep trying to reach for my dreams and ive told few of my friends to do the same and theyve gotten on a nice clear course for fulfilling their dreams. yet when i try to do the same i just wind up falling face first into mud again and again. i wonder if me trying to reach what i dream of doing is just making me miserable since i do seem to keep failing again and again while doing it. i quit school and IT studies because i was miserable in it had no real friends didnt get along with teachers and IT studies felt like they warent going anywhere. now ive been working hard as i can for an off chance i get to study 3d animation and visualization. well im not even certain enaugh that im good enaugh to get there. yet its the only thing i feel im good at. then why i keep becoming more and more miserable while trying to reach that goal. i dont even know what ill do when i get there. i keep asking my self why do i do this? and i allways respond because i love doing it and i want to become as good as i can be in it. again and again i feel like im falling face first in the mud while trying to get there. what im doing wrong i know i propably wont get a good or even a clear answer here but well this is kind of only place i can write this down to.

  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Johann Sebastian Bach
  • Reading: Globalia by Jean-Chistpohe Rufin

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  • Current Residence: Oort cloud - sol system
  • Interests: astronomy, 3d modeling, aeronautics and who knows what else
  • Favourite movie: Gran torino, 9
  • Favourite band or musician: Rob zombie, Nakaido "chabo" Reichi
  • Favourite genre of music: altern rock, classical, rock
  • Favourite poet or writer: Frank Herbert, Alastair Reynolds
  • Favourite style of art: 3d, matte paintings and traditional art
  • MP3 player of choice: winamp newest
  • Favourite game: homeworld 2,call of duty 4, star wars KOTOR's and Sins of Solar Empire
  • Favourite gaming platform: pc and nintedo DS
  • Favourite cartoon character: garfield and nemi
  • Personal Quote: rise into the sky and set it in flames
  • Tools of the Trade: 3dsmax 8, photoshop cs2, mapzone 2.0

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:iconpowerfulhorse:
mmm thanks for see me and congratulation for have to Sonata arctica, Stratovarius and Nightwish. :)

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Againt of the furrys that kill the childrens head
:icondarkmir:
Thx for the watch.

You look to have the makings of a pretty cool 3D artist.

Persuing it as a career?

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:iconintervain:
:wave: Thank you for the :+devwatch:
:iconsimbandeh:
Hey bud, thanks for your fav'rt on A Thursday Night in Heaven. I really like your assault rifle model. I think I've been to this page before, I'm pretty sure I remember some of your work. Very nice stuff, very impressive. :)

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:iconfuleriel:
Thanks for the friend ^^

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:iconamras-arfeiniel:
Thank you for the watch! :)

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:iconmasa86:
kiitoksii favista! Pahalta näyttää toine kerta jo. 8-)

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:iconscorsagra:
what would be your next step?

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:iconmasa86:
takkist favista :)

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:icondeftonys-muse:
hey thankx/kiitti for wach ^^

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